Sunday, January 2, 2011

Resolutions!

Happy New Year! Like everyone else, I cannot believe that we have already hit January.... I tend to mark my years beginning in September with "back to school" time so it is appropriate for me to say 'already' January. Predictable to a fault, I had grand plans to jump on the resolution bandwagon and eat better, exercise more, pray more, be more patient, less stressed etc. but today I had to sit back and re-evaluate. That is a lot of stuff to consider and lets be honest- trying to do better, be better is not going to help the less stressed/happier me that is really the ultimate goal of a new years resolution, right?? We resolve to change to be better, but in resolving to change, aren't we resolving to strive for perfection-- unfortunately I have always held that drive for perfection to be my WORST QUALITY. It makes me crazy, irritable and never satisfied!!Today I told my husband (after whining about stupid things I wish were different) "honestly though, we have it pretty good, right?" Maybe I just need to back off and be grateful and try NOT to manage life- it is a gift and I should accept it thankfully like all the other gifts I just received. I am sure that me being me, I will have to try to improve things just a little but I officially repeal my previous resolutions for perfection. This year my resolution is NOT to be better- it is to be less better and to love it :)

6 comments:

Jo said...

I linked into this post because here I am in May as much a neurotic perfectionist as before..... resolution fail :(

Kelly said...

Great post. It is a difficult thing to let go of those perfectionist tendencies. I know. I am trying, though, to accept myself as I am and not to beat myself up about all those things that I think SHOULD be done.

Sober Julie said...

lol I dig the post and think it's human for it to not be entirely implemented.

Ixy said...

September is my "new year" too. I've stopped making resolutions, because the perfectionist tendency toward all or nothing means I pursue goals too aggressively. Then when I've exhausted myself and life gets in the way, I feel so disappointed that I've failed again. It's a hard character trait to change, but at least you're trying :)

Jo said...

it's nice to know that i am not alone!!

rasjacobson said...

Well, it's the end of the academic year. How did you do? Did you micromanage less? I think for educators (myself included) it's practically in the job description. We have so many macro-deadlines and mini-deadlines. Ples we generally like office supplies - organizational stuff (binder clips are my friends), and we tend to be l'il perfectionists with ourselves and our students.

I hope you were gentle with yourself when those moments when the plans didn't necessarily go... well as planned. ;-)

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