Wednesday, March 16, 2011

A (fake) snapshot of my life

N had a playdate this morning so it gave Miss A and I some sunny girl-time. I decided to just park and walk downtown in the little shops and thrift stores so as not to spend too much $$. She looked adorable in a new outfit and though my hair wasn't washed, my pants were clean and i had cute shoes on. From far away under my sunglasses, I "might" have passed for together :)
When we were done, I collapsed the stroller with one hand since the other was holding A, and tossed it in the back of my Escape, which was shockingly clean. Then I sat in the back seat and put her into her car seat as I simultaneously pulled the cardoor mostly closed with my foot. A though suddenly struck me- "I probably look like I am good at this mommy thing". I mean, there we were, mom and daughter out enjoying the day, effortlessly sliding into the car etc. etc. Then I smiled cause today is a fluke!!
Most days are more disheveled and intense with arguments, bargaining and stains and dropping things and crying babies and poop :/ In other words, appearances can be deceiving! Sometimes I think I have a pretty good handle on being a mom and usually about two seconds after that thought A pulls over an open cup of juice onto N's too worn DVDs and I am reminded that 1) we are not ready for big kid cups in the living room and 2) my kid probably watches too much tv.
BUT I try to remember that I am not alone and that the perfectly dressed and manicured mom had to have someone else watch the kids while she got that way. The perfectly behaved church kids probably even get yelled at when they are not in church too. Things are not always what they seem...
So no I am not perfect! I am constantly trying to be better and will never be the supermom I sometimes think I 'could' be, but every once in awhile, if I can fool the fellow moms at the park or the grocery store clerk, then that will keep me going :)

REAL photo #1

Real Photo #2

Real Photo #3

1 comment:

judejo said...

First of all, there is no such thing as a perfect mother JJ...Second, cherish those special moments with N or A because they are times you will never will still remember them when you're an old Grandma...I still think about times spent with just you or just your little brother...I've seen how crazy your days can be with both of them so enjoy those infrequent, tranquil times whenever you can get them...