my name is jamie and i want to be an orthorexic

I would consider myself a healthy eater.
Or at least I always WAS- what has happened to me? Ever since my little girl graced us with her presence on Easter of LAST year, I have been falling off the wagon repeatedly. I know better than to eat some of the crap that I do and I really want to stay on the right path but more and more I see myself clinging precariously to the healthy wagon train as it leaves for the trip west. Please don't leave me wagon train!!
I just read that something called "orthorexia" may be considered a real psychological condition soon- it is basically an obsession with healthy eating- where do I sign up?

(note: i am downplaying the severity and realize there is much more to it. not poking fun of it either, just myself. but hey why am i apologizing, this is my blog? i need a self-help group. and now i am having a full converation with myself :/)

Back to the eating thing:
Maybe it is her fault, born on Easter after all- one of the three mornings of the year that it is okay to eat candy for breakfast...
Maybe it is my son's fault because he keeps me jumping so I can't sit down to eat a salad for lunch...
Nope- all my fault.

It was so much easier to take care of me when it was just me!

understatement of the century.

I grab and stuff random morsels into my mouth all day and I crave sugary evil! But I am determined to crawl back onto that wagon.
At least I make them eat healthy- I buy quality local and often organic. I cook from scratch to avoid preservatives and artificial dyes. I grimace at white pasta and white rice and white bread. But somehow today I found myself feeding tiny little A bites of M&Ms to keep her pacified while I decimated the bowl of Easter candy..... where is that self-help group?!