feeling sorry for myself again

Today Sucks.
There- by me acknowledging it, I will have accomplished one of two possibilities, that A) I can move past the fact and forward with very low expectations or B) that my crappy mood is sure to make everything that much worse. So far, the latter seems to be winning out. My children are currently fighting over something behind me and I am non-parenting so that I can sulk- go ahead and judge. They have been whining and/or crying since they woke up this morning so I am starting to tune it out. N also dropped the new soap in the toilet and spilled sand from the cactus all over the desk.

Today is "supposed" to be a work day for me which means I drop the minions at the babysitter around ten and then alternate between seeing patients, commuting and teaching all day before retrieving minions around dinner. However, my babysitter called yesterday (at 3:30 PM) to tell me she couldn't keep the kids today because she had to go substitute teach. This loosely translates to "Can you not go to work tomorrow so that I can make an extra $20?" Our back-ups are college kids and they are unavailable today. We don't live close to family.

Soooooo here we go- I cancelled my class and since my voice is almost completely gone from a throat funk, the secretary probably thinks I have the plague so it works. I still have patients though, and of course they are scheduled during the usual nursing hours or when the minions are set to go down for naps- in other words, all of the convenient times. Let me reiterate- today sucks.

Of all days, why today when there is extra crazy in the air with my children. I think that we have a crack leak in the house because they are hopped up on something. At least most of my patients have several children of their own so I won't spoil their vision of motherhood or scar them into not having kids. Hopefully you all have a much better day- I am going to try to locate the source of the crazy so that I can have some, or else I won't be able to get through this day.